Finding Your Next Step in the Midst of Fear, Pain, Or Chaos

Sometimes life feels like a tornado touched downexalted experience. Meditation is another way that
on an ordinary day and left broken chards ofmany have connected with a strength and love
everything you knew. Change is often sudden andbeyond their conscious understanding. Sometimes
all-encompassing. When a major shift comes intoyou may find grace in the religion of your
your life, you may feel vulnerable and frightened.upbringing. Sometimes, you may need to explore
But keep this in mind. When a lobster grows, itnew spiritual paths that touch your soul now.
sheds it shell. It's pink and raw in the in-betweenYou might find it helpful to write a letter to God
time. But it's about to grow into a stronger andor to your Inner Teacher and allow yourself to
greater expression of itself. So are you.write back from this powerful perspective of
When you're frightened your mind tends to spinloving wisdom. If you have a hard time imagining
around and calculate a thousand scenarios all atwhat this Loving Power would say, imagine what
once. You can't imagine how you will everyou would say to someone you loved who
navigate your way through this kaleidoscopicreached out to you.
unknown. You may feel tired, hopeless, ill-equippedStop Fighting What Is
and burdened. You may feel as though you justMany spiritual paths teach that when we can't
wish you could go back to the way things were.escape our pain or change our circumstances, a
You may feel terrified that you will make a baddeeper, true life begins. Buddhists believe that
decision. These are all normal feelings. But they'refreedom comes when we face our pain with
feelings. They are not facts. They are just theawareness and acceptance. There is a teaching
first layer of reaction.that advises us to "lean into the sharp edge of
Underneath this raging sea of emotions and firstthe sword." In the Judeo-Christian tradition, we
reactions, you have a competent decision maker.are taught to "Resist not evil." In modern
You have excellent radar. You have what youpsychology we are taught, that "what we resist,
need. Underneath your confusion, you have apersists." On the path of healing, all roads lead to
resourceful self. You do have a way of coming toacceptance.
clarity.You might find it helpful to write a "Declaration of
Just because you can't see your choices, doesn'tAcceptance." You can write a list of resolves,
mean they're not there. Fear often puts up asomething like this: "I resolve to see this as
shield that blocks out other information. Butpositive." "I resolve to see this as useful." "I
remember, change is the nature of life. Theresolve to no longer look backwards or focus on
embryo leaves the womb to inherit this world.blame."
You left kindergarten to go on to first grade.Sometimes you may feel as though you don't
Being in transition is a natural and vital part ofwant to embrace your circumstances because
existence. It's up to you whether you will interpretyou do not want to resign yourself to them. You
it as a void or an adventure. All true growthmay think that if you stop fighting your life, you
originates in newness and confusion. That's whywill settle into it like concrete and be stuck
the great philosopher Nietzche said, "It takesforever. But this is a melodramatic thinking. This is
chaos to give birth to a rising star."not the rest of your life. This situation is a
While you're "giving birth to a rising star," thesestepping stone. It's not set in stone. Nothing in life
strategies can help you discover the next rightremains static. Show up with love for this
step for you:moment. It's your moment. Love changes
Find a Next step, not a whole lifeeverything. Embracing your life makes you strong,
In times of change, most of us start asking "whatcentered, and focused and helps you grow
should I do with my life?" That's way too huge ainevitably into your next rightful expression. St.
question. You may need to ask "what do I do inCatherine of Siena said, "All the way to heaven is
this moment?" What do I feel energy to do? Theheaven."
best way to find your way through times ofChoose from Love Instead of Fear
change is one moment at a time. You may thinkYour frightened mind might want to act fast.
of it as following a path of breadcrumbs. YouYour angry mind might want to make someone
don't need to find the whole loaf, wheel ofelse pay. Your small mind does not make the best
cheese, and salad bar. You just need to find onedecisions. Your first reactions may come to you
crumb. Find the one thing that you feel like youstrongly, but it doesn't mean that you want to
could do right now. It's okay if the one thing youfollow them. Remember there is a deeper,
want to do is take a nap. Each step leads tobrighter part of yourself that trusts more and
another. It also helps you to realize that youmay be willing to take the high road in different
always have a direction in the moment.situations. Sometimes the voice of fear within you
Make the decision to Support your Choicescan sound like being "reasonable." But often it
It's hard to make a good decision with a guillotinelimits you to past conditioning. Choosing with love
hanging over your head. You may be afraid ofmakes you feel peaceful. It makes you feel
making the wrong choice or of missing somethingbigger and freer. It has a long-term beneficial
crucial in this situation. It helps if you create aneffect. It helps to ask, "If I wasn't feeling fear,
emotionally safe space for yourself. That meanswhat would I choose?" or "If I didn't have any
you will commit to listening to yourself withoutlimitations, what would I want in this situation?"
criticism, judgment, or self-attack. RenownedIn most situations, it helps to choose with your
psychologist Abram Maslow, said that "Allultimate dream goal in mind and work backwards
creativity comes from safety." Consider writingtoward it. Many people get stuck because they
yourself an agreement or contract, saying thatare trying to find big, revolutionary answers while
whatever you choose, you will stand behind.keeping circumstances exactly the same. It helps
Here is an example of this kind of agreement: "Ito think of what you want in an unlimited way,
will not judge the outcome of this situation. I amnot what you think you can have, not what your
making the best decision I know how to makepresent mind can figure out. Remember, you can't
given the information I have. I will be honest withplan an inspired life. Be honest about what you
myself. I will be diligent in doing the best I can. "truly desire. Your real desires will give you energy
And here's a kicker clause you might add in: "I amand stamina. You have more strength and
willing to forgive myself if I have made a mistake.faculties than you can imagine. You will unlock
I am willing to be kind with myself if, later, I learnthese secret resources when you listen to your
things that make me wish I'd chosen somethingtrue heart's calling.
else. I'm willing to grow from the situation andSeek Peace in the Midst of the Problem
learn new things."Many times we think we need to make a decision
Let go of your old identityin order to feel peace of mind. But find peace of
It doesn't matter how you would have chosen inmind first, and then you will make a better
the past. It doesn't matter what someone ofdecision. Part of you may want to obsess about
your stature would normally do. What do youthe situation, play it over again, and count the
want to do right now? Is your past in the way ofgrains of sand in your options. But it helps to take
your future? You may try to salvage or maintaina walk, take a hike, read a novel, or get a
a certain self-image and it may be time to retiremassage. Relax and let go. Relaxing can help you
this. Your best decisions come when you areaccess your creative resourceful mind. Letting go
totally free. If you woke up with amnesiacan help you remember a vital perspective or a
tomorrow, and had no past at all, what would youpast strength. A quiet mind is a powerful machine.
want to do right now? That desire has trueThey say that what you focus on grows. If you
energy and power. Sometimes an old identity is afocus on your problem intently, you will see
matter of conditioning or habit. Sometimes, yournothing but your problem. Albert Einstein reflected,
former self must be celebrated and laid to rest."You cannot solve a problem from the level of
Someone new is emerging on the scene.the problem." Modern brain research indicates that
Give yourself Permission to Experimentyou will tend to have more "Eureka moments"
Sometimes you can't just think about what to do.when you're not specifically thinking about your
You must take a step. You can't have certainproblem. This is just how the brain works. In an
experiences in the shallow end of the pool. SomeAustrian brain study, scientists discovered that
lessons come only with immersion. Can youthe more people focused on the tests they were
imagine what it would feel like to know that youtrying to solve, the more their brains produced
had to immediately marry the first person yougamma waves which created a mental block or
dated? It would stop you cold. But theimpasse in their thinking.
experimentation of dating yields valuable feedback.Surround Yourself with Support
Sometimes it's just not possible to choose in aTake leave of people who make you feel small.
vacuum.Oprah Winfrey says "surround yourself with the
Give yourself free reign to change your mind. Thispeople who lift you up." Why not join or start a
isn't flightiness or the inability to make asupport group? Sometimes friends and family are
commitment. It may be a natural process ofasking you questions you can't answer yet. Don't
coming to clarity. Invite yourself to starttake on the responsibility of making them feel
anywhere and then change direction. A scientistgood. This is your time to take care of you.
learns by beginning research at one point and thenThe right people ask the right questions. You
following the trail of discoveries. If you insist onmight need people who don't find your new
perfectionism upfront, you're almost sure toidentity threatening or upsetting. Your husband
guarantee paralysis.can't be as neutral with you as a therapist or life
Genius often accompanies flexibility. Ray Kroc, thecoach, especially when you're contemplating issues
CEO of McDonald's began by starting a companythat affect him. Your mother may not be able to
that sold milkshakes. He originally got interested incomprehend or support your decision to go on a
McDonald's, a small hamburger company at the"vision quest" or take classes in photography.
time, thinking he could sell more milkshakes there.Sometimes it's hard to justify paying for
But he allowed himself to change course as heprofessional help, especially when you're nervous
proceeded. He wasn't distracted or weak. Heabout money. But keep in mind that skillful,
committed to his instincts more than a particularsupportive people can save you years, thousands
outcome.of dollars, and untold amount of opportunity costs.
Uplift Your ConfidenceThey can see the best in you even in times of
In-between times can be acid on your ego. It's apain. They can help you reach your highest
strong chemical that can eat away at yourpotential in life.
self-worth and self-esteem. It's easy to look uponWhere you're Wounded, You're Gifted
a bleak future when your heart is closed down toYou may be in a situation that will call forth new
yourself. But when you get clearer about whostrengths. Author Ernest Hemingway said, "We
you are, the love in your heart you have to give,are stronger in the broken places." Your situation
your unequalled value, it is impossible to imagine amay help you feel a deep compassion for others.
narrow path to a dire future. Remember, there isIt may give you a purpose that you didn't have in
an infinite self within you that believes in you, andlife before. One mother lost her child to a drunk
knows the brilliant and fluid life you came to live.driving accident. To resolve her grief, she formed
It helps to remember that you have feltMADD, Mothers Against Drunk Driving. Many
confused before, and you got through it. Youfreedom fighters righted an injustice they once
might journal about past successes and goodsuffered. Healers help those with the pain they
decisions. If you find your mind being negative andknow most intimately. What is your situation
roiling with self-criticism, try a daily "Win List" tocurrently teaching you?
reinforce your current progress. It's a techniqueYou might find it comforting to help someone
that has you record 5-10 positive things you didelse. When you're frightened or suffering, it's easy
that day. Write down any achievement.to be consumed by pain. You may forget that
Concentrate particularly on non-tangibleyou still have gifts to give someone else. In
accomplishments and small positive steps that youAlcoholics Anonymous, it's suggested that when
might otherwise overlook because you don't yetyou're struggling to stay sober, it's best to reach
have a final outcome. For instance, you mightout and bolster someone who has less sobriety
write: "Caught myself thinking negatively andthan you. It helps you to remember that even
made myself focus on something good instead."when you're in pain, you can make a difference
"Got out of bed even though I wanted to rolland alleviate the suffering of others. It helps you
over." "Wrote in my journal when I wanted to yellto tap into your natural sense of love, your
at my husband."deeper faculties, and strength you may have
Draw Near to a Higher Powerforgotten that you have.
When you feel confused, it's often a good time toAnd, when giving birth to your lobster shell or
strengthen your connection to whatever Higherrising star just seems to demand too much,
Power you believe in. It helps to remember thatremember you will get through this, you will thrive
you are not alone and that nothing is withoutthrough this, and "This too shall pass."
meaning or purpose. Where have you found thisCopyright 2008 Tama J. Kieves, All rights
source of connection and comfort in the past?reserved.
For some people, walking in nature can provide an